WRITE ME A LOVE STORY
By Janet Baldey
CHAPTER TWO
The day he left, I forced myself to give him a peck on the cheek and then turned
and bolted upstairs. From out of the
bedroom window I watched as Frank marched down the hill and out of my life,
without once looking back. How could he
have done that when once we’d been so close?
It was then that I broke down and sobbed until my pillow was soaked as I
realised that, slowly and with stealth, he’d turned into a different person.
The next day it seemed as though summer
was over. During the night the wind had
veered northerly and when I woke, it was blowing a gale that ripped the still
green leaves off the trees. Fallen
apples lay in drifts, like blood amongst the grass. Most of them would be bruised and only be
fit for pigswill but perhaps if I were quick I could save some. As I opened the door, I heard the cows
bellowing. I’d forgotten the clock but
they hadn’t, it was past milking time and their udders were swollen. I put down the bucket: the apples would have to wait.
Leaving
the farmhouse, a fine mist settled on my face.
The wind had dropped and a thick layer of cloud drifted towards the
ground veiling the surrounding hills. As
I crossed the yard the drizzle changed to a downpour that drenched the manure
spattered yard and turned it into a stinking sea of mud. Listening to the rain drumming against the
roof, I walked through the milking shed and pulled open the heavy doors on the
far side, letting in the cows that were already jostling for position, their
big brown eyes filmy with longing.
When we’d first started to farm, large herds of
Red Devons already grazed the surrounding hills so Frank had opted for
Guernseys, delicate animals with pretty metallic grey-blue markings, saying,
‘we can’t compete with the big boys. They’ve cornered the market. We’ll go for quality.’
We had six now, all named after flowers, Daisy,
Bluebell, Rose, Pansy, Cowslip and Clover.
Their yield wasn’t high but it was ideal for butter, cream and
cheese. One by one, I herded them into
the barn and tied them to rings set in the walls before pouring a generous
quantity of maize and sugar beet nuts into a manger. As the cows bent their heads
and began to munch, I pulled a three-legged stool towards me and turned to the
first in line, reaching underneath for her teats. Squeezing and pulling, I sat listening to
the sound of the creamy milk squirting into the bucket, staring at the
raindrops sliding down the windows. It
was still pouring with rain when I’d finished and within minutes I was soaked
as I walked the heavy churns out into the yard before wrestling them onto the
flat bedded float. Although I’d often
watched Frank do this, I hadn’t realised how much effort it took and was
exhausted by the time I’d finished.
Breathing heavily, I stopped for a moment, then, wiping my rain-soaked
face with a wet hand, trudged through the mire to the stable where Barley, our
sturdy little cob, was waiting. As soon
as she saw me, Barley’s ears pricked and her soft muzzle reached forward and
nudged my hand, searching for her usual morning apple, cut into half. I ran my fingers through the coarse hair of
her mane, the heat of her body warming my hands. Then, with a brisk slap on her rump, once
more I braved the deluge and led the pony into the yard to shut her into the
float. Scrambling aboard and taking up
the reins, I suddenly realised from now on this would be my regular morning and
evening ritual, day in day out, rain or shine, with no time off for good
behaviour. Tears diluted by the rain,
slid down my face as I sat hunched up against the weather, listening to the
muffled sound of Barley’s hooves struggling through the soggy ground as she
plodded down the hill towards the morning milk train.
Once back home, I stood shivering in the hallway
stripping off my dripping clothes. I
caught a sudden glimpse of my face in the hall mirror; dark hair plastered to
my head, I was as pale as a celluloid doll.
I turned away my eyes staring into nothing as I slotted together the
rest of the day. There’d be no time
for breakfast. My first job would be to
sluice down the milking shed, then I had to feed and muck out the animals,
before starting on the one thousand and one other jobs the farm demanded. That night even my screaming muscles couldn’t
stop me from plummeting into a deep pit, where all thoughts of cows, pigs and
waterlogged fields were snuffed out by the spiralling darkness.
From then on my body fought a losing battle
against fatigue. Often I went to bed
hungry, too tired to eat. Even when
Frank had been around, running the smallholding had been hard. He’d done most of the heavy work while I’d
looked after the cows, milking them twice a day and churning any left-over milk
into cream, butter and cheese to take to market. I also took care of the books. Each evening I would sit down at the kitchen
table, switch on the radio and begin the job of smoothing and deciphering the
crumpled bits of paper that had spent the day in Frank’s pockets. Soothed by the music and flickering
firelight, I’d blank out the chaos of the outside world, comforted by the sight
of my cosy kitchen, neatly kept ledger and pile of spiked bills. When I looked back, those evenings seem
idyllic. Without Frank, my work suddenly
doubled. I became whip-thin and had to
punch new holes in the leather belt that held up my slacks. By the time night came, I was exhausted and
went to bed as soon as it got dark, not bothering to draw the curtains. And all the time an accumulation of bills
hid the table and the spike stood empty.
But it wasn’t just the bone draining weariness
that sapped my spirits. Against my will,
I pined for Frank. Both of us were
strong-willed and over the years we’d had our differences but in spite of that
I missed the feeling that we were two fused into one, soul mates tuned into
each others’ dreams. I missed the
shared glances when in company and the warm bulk of him in bed beside me. In the evenings when darkness drowned the
fields and the night wind rustled the leaves, I would sit in his chair and
burrow my head into its worn fabric, searching for a trace of him.
Just realised I read chapter 2 before chapter 1. Thoroughly enjoyed 2 so looking forward to the the first one.
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If you click on Janets label you will see all her stories:
DeleteThe Prologue, Ch 1a, Ch 1b, and this one Ch 2. Happy reading, she is good.
Feeling quite a wet blanket after that chapter.And the work, geezer no wonder the sprigs of today don't turn up for veg and fruit picking.
ReplyDeleteLoved this chapter as much as the 2 before Janet. Off to reread the bit where the mist turns to rain running down the stable window.
Great stuff, bring on the next chapter. :-)
Message to self. Proof read before publishing. I'm my message I typed geez and the text God changed it to geezer. I typed sprogs and he changed it to sprigs. I suppose they are both connected but not what I'd written.
ReplyDeleteHave a great day. Stay safe.
As a child and living in the middle of a concrete jungle I used to dream about living on a farm.I'm somewhat glad, now, that I didn't.The details in this story appear to indicate you may have.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, loving the story.
Many thanks for your kind remarks. Never lived on a farm although a distant cousin was chief cowman to the Queen in Norfolk.
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