The New Year’s Resolution
By Bob French
Hilary stared back at the face that
looked at her with searching eyes from the mirror and for a moment contemplated
her worst nightmare; that she was getting old and would soon be left on the
proverbial shelf. As though justifying her age, she answered the mirror.
“Twenty
one isn’t old. Lots of time yet.” But she recognised the
concern in her voice.
The
sound of ‘Love, love me do’ by the Beatles, a new group on the ‘Pop scene’
interrupted her thoughts, as it crackled into her dishevelled bed-sit in Chelmsford , via her tiny
Japanese trany. It had been their song, but now it made her feel lonely,
betrayed and unloved. She felt the sudden surge of anger rise as she
stared at the shattered photo frame of Mark, still lying in the
corner. He had broken off their engagement after two years,
shattering her dreams into too many pieces for her to find, let alone repair.
Christmas
passed quietly for Hilary, choosing not to go home and face her mother’s
inquisition, but decided to spend it alone in her flat. After the
January Sales, the mild excitement of returning to work and social contact
brought a welcome relief to her loneliness, and when the muffled sound of her
alarm clock struggled from beneath her blankets, warning her that it was time
to get up and get ready for work, she felt a surge, a newness of life, rush
through her.
The
weather forecast was cold, windy and overcast and she decided to chance it with
just her Aaron cardigan; after all it was only three hundred yards to the bus
stop. Within minutes, it had started to rain; lightly at first, but
by the time she had reached the busy Roxwell
Road , she was soaked through and resigned herself
to arriving at work looking like a drowned rat.
“What
more could go wrong?” she sighed to herself as she came upon the queue of
familiar sombre faces destined for the workplace.
Hilary
nodded at Jill and Sandra who both worked in Woolworths and ignored the middle
aged suit who always ogled at her legs and mini-skirt with a perverted grin, as
she silently took her place in the queue. ‘Same old faces’ she
thought.
As
she stood, mindlessly watched the chaos of the morning rush hour unfold, she
felt her legs ache from the arctic wind and prayed that, just for once, the bus
was on time. It was the mutterings of Jill and Sandra that broke her
thoughts and drew her attention to a young man trying to cross the busy road.
She watched as he struggled with his umbrella, then, made a life or death dash
and joined the queue. He nodded to Jill and Sandra but ignored her,
which pricked her already shattered self esteem.
She
felt her anger rise and with a shrug, turned her back to him; ‘Men, I hate
them,’ she thought to herself, as she fought back her
self-pity. Then he suddenly spoke.
“Excuse
me Miss, but you look terribly wet. Would you like to share my
umbrella?” Instantly she felt threatened and ignored him. After
Mark, she had promised herself that she would never trust another man. Though
she rarely made New Year’s resolutions, she recalled shouting such a promise to
a half empty bottle of wine one evening. The situation was saved by
the arrival of the crowded bus, and as expected, her boss gave her a hard time
about her appearance. She didn’t see the young man again until the
end of January when she was struggling home through Admirals Park
with her weekly shopping after work. He had been out jogging and virtually
collided with her as he came around the corner of the bowling green .
“Oh,
I am terribly sorry. My apologies,” then he turned and looked into
her startled face. “Hello Miss. Do you want a hand with
those?” He nodded at her shopping bags. She went to say
‘get lost,’ but he smiled, leant forward and eased the two heavy bags from her
white knuckled fists. The relief on her body was instant and she
looked up at him and thanked him through her smile.
“That’s
very kind of you. It’s not very far.”
They
covered the short distance in an uncomfortable silence during which time she
contemplated asking him in for a cup of tea, but as she reached her front door,
decided against it. Hilary took the bags and went to thank him, but
he had simply smiled at her, turned, and jogged off down the road. She felt a
sudden rush of pleasure as her eyes lingered on his physique, then scolded
herself as she slammed the door behind her.
Monday
morning brought more rain and as she approached the bus stop she was surprised
to see him already waiting there. She went through her usual routine of nodding
to Jill and Sandra and ignoring the pervert and joined the queue next to
him.
Hilary
was about to thank him for helping her with her shopping when something caught
her eye. A large removal van was thundering down the road toward the
bus stop. She glanced at the huge puddle in the gutter and then back at the
lorry and resigned herself to the outcome. As predicted, the
lorry hit the puddle, sending a wave of dirty rain water in her
direction. Jill swore at the driver and Hilary screamed and crouched
down just as the young man brought his umbrella around to protect her from the
deluge.
“Are
you alright Miss.” He gently helped her up and after she inspected
herself found that she was unscathed.
Hilary
felt a wave of gratitude rush over her, turned and looked up into his young
masculine face.
“Thank
you so much.” Then without thinking she heard herself
say. “My name is Hilary, and thank you for helping me the other
night.” As she spoke she felt her prejudice against men slowly start
to disappear, but quickly took control of her feelings. The young
man smiled at her and was about to speak when the bus arrived, interrupting him
and destroying the moment.
Each
morning she would greet him with a smile and he would move his umbrella over
her, protecting her from the wind and the rain, but she always maintained her
self-imposed barrier. After a few days she thought about striking up
a conversation, but deep down inside, her fears prevented her from going beyond
the usual pleasantries, even after Jill and Sandra’s taunting.
The
wet weather slowly moved into February and it was whilst she was chatting with
the girls at the bus stop, under the protection of his umbrella, that the
subject of St Valentine’s Day came up; a day she now loathed. Hilary
recalled the childish games played by colleagues in the office to see who had
not received cards. The expression on her face and her feeble
attempt at changing the subject was quickly picked up by the young
man.
To
everyone’s surprise, the morning of the 14th of February
was sunny, ruined only by a cold wind that howled down Roxwell Road , and instead of the
protection of the umbrella, the young man had gallantly stood closely behind
her, protecting her from the bitter wind. Hilary had smiled up at
him, acknowledging her thanks, before ignoring the glance between Jill and
Sandra. Again she felt her defences start to slip, but shook herself
inwardly and reminded herself of her New year’s resolution.
Hilary
silently tolerated the office jokes and pranks until lunch time when she could
escape to the privacy of the Cathedral grounds. It was as she bent
down to pick up her bag that she noticed the envelope. Fearing another
practical joke, she quickly stuffed it into her pocket and left. Ten minutes
later on her favourite bench her curiosity got the better of her and she tore
open the envelop and quickly read it.
The
note simply read ‘Please take this note to the Empire Café on Moulsham Street at
8 o’clock this evening and present it to Fred, the manager.’ Hilary
stared at the neatly printed note; her mind racing as she went through
potentials. ‘It could be Graham, or Jim or even Brian. No, he’s married,’ she
thought.
On
return to the office, her suspicions were confused even more so, as she
realised, after some discrete questioning, that none of her colleagues had sent
her the note. At first she had decided not to go, but as the afternoon wore on,
her inquisitiveness changed her
mind.
The
smell of burnt bacon, cigarette smoke and the thumping sound of the Rolling
Stones from the juke box met her as she pushed open the steamed up café door.
Young faces turned and through a veil of smoke, looked up at her, then ignored
her, as she made her way to the counter where a red faced, rotund man in a
stained string vest and a permanent smile on his face turned and greeted her.
“Ello
luv, what you having?”
“Hello. I
am looking for Fred. I am to give him this note.” Fred
grinned and took the note,” then glanced at her.
“Please
follow me luv.” As she followed him toward the back of the café, the
light grew dimmer and the sound of the thumping music faded. Then
Fred stopped and stood back and gave a short bow.
“Ere
we are miss, if you’d like to take a seat, your ‘ost will be here soon.”
Hilary
smiled nervously as her eyes took in the secluded table for two, lit with
candle light. In the dim flickering light she allowed her mind to
race again. ‘Who could this mystery person be?’ As she
made herself comfortable, she noticed the small envelope on her plate addressed
to her and slowly opened it. She became aware that as she came to
the end of the simple poem of secret love and admiration her eyes had filled
with tears.
Whilst
reading the poem again, she sensed that someone was standing beside her and as
she looked up, she felt her heart jump. Their eyes met, instantly
bringing a smile to their faces, then the young man from the bus stop nervously
held out a bunch of red roses and in a voice no more than a whisper, wished her
a happy Valentine’s Day.
As
he sat down, he leant across the table and gently took her hand. Hilary’s
instinct was to pull away, but her heart told her to stay. She stared into his
eyes and for the first time in months, she felt her hatred and fears disappear.
“My
name is William. I hope you don’t mind but I couldn’t help noticing
that the world had done you an injustice.” Hilary frowned at him
over the roses.
“That
such an attractive person as your self should be alone on a special night such
as tonight.” He felt her hand gently squeeze his and saw the tear trickle down
her cheek.
“Please
forgive me if I have upset you, but I have been trying to pluck up enough
courage to…..” Hilary slowly leant across the table a put her finger on his
lips.
“Please
don’t spoil the moment, we can talk about such things when we are old and grey
and our children have grown up.
Copyright Bob French
Nice little love story, clever (implied) ending, and jolly well written Bob.
ReplyDeletevery romantic, however,judging by the descripion of the Empire cafe it's a wonder Hilary didn't "run a mile"
ReplyDeleteA stained string vest in the middle of Feb! Fred must have been macho. I know the area well
Thank you for posting this very nice story. Very well written although sometimes you tend to make a statement and then explain it when it is not necessary. Your reader is intelligent enough to understand implications.
ReplyDeleteAlso,'discretely' is spelled 'discreetly.'
Best wishes