Blue

From Natalie Hudson

I look happy on the outside,

And mostly, that's enough,

But feeling it on the inside,

Is where it gets more tough,

I get up in the morning,

I try to raise a smile,

But really, on the inside,

I want to run a mile,

It takes all of my energy, 

To just get out of bed, 

I find it so much easier, 

To hide away instead, 

Quite frequently I just wish,

That I could disappear,

Climb into a bubble,

And hide from all I fear,

It really gets quite tricky,

To learn to love your brain,

When all it seems to serve you,

Is uncertainty and pain,

Why can't I just be normal,

And think like others do,

Have happy thoughts inside my mind,

And not feel so damn blue,

I really do feel stuck sometimes,

With thoughts that fill my mind,

So negative, so miserable,

And to myself unkind, 

I hope this poem helps people, 

To start to understand, 

That although a smile is on my face, 

My mind is not so grand, 

I really wish this poem, 

Had a positive refrain, 

But I'm afraid that's not the case, 

With what's inside my brain. 

 

                                                                                   Copyright Natalie Hudson