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Monday 7 December 2020

Teenage Lament


 Teenage Lament

by Rosemary Clarke

Here I am
All alone
Waiting by my telephone.
Wond'ring if
He is there
Does he even know or care?
Does he hear
Rants and screams
As he shatters all my dreams?
Wond'ring if
Set for life
Do I want to be his wife?
Will he want
Only me?
Guess I'll have to wait and see.
Put my hand
To his ring
Would that give me everything?
Have a flat
Then a car..
Will we really go that far?
Have a girl
Then a boy
Would that fill my heart with joy?
What if he's
Ringing now
That fat slag that's down The Plough!
How will I
Really know
When it comes, that final blow.
Telling me
That we're done
That he wants to have some fun.
Should I block
Him instead
Tell him I wish he was dead?
Here I wait
Phone in hand
Miserablist girl in all the land.
I won't try
To ring him..
I could go out with Paul or Jim.
Then he'll be
All forlorn
Wishing he was never born.
Making him
Stop his schemes
Lose the lady of his dreams.
I'll give him
Until 8
Then I'll say 'it's much too late!'
Could he be
Still at work?
Oh he really is a jerk!
What's this text?
What's it say?
He's remembered my birthday!
So we'll go
Out tonight
I knew our love would turn out right!

Copyright Rosemary Clark

Sunday 6 December 2020

Playtime

 

Playtime 

(ode to a muse)

 

By Dawn Van Win

 

Here she comes skipping up the path

She loves to sing, she loves to laugh

The little girl who comes to play

Can brighten almost any day

 

Without a worry or a care

And rainbow smiles for all to share

As she finds the toys I’ve placed

To see that smile upon her face

 

But it is not always thus

Sometimes I fail to earn her trust

With long delays between our dates

And saddened by those fickle fates

Who pile up things both large and small

To keep us distant from it all

 

I try to pause and catch my breath

And notice feelings of neglect

Of that which is most pure and true

And filled with light of every hue

 

Returning to our sacred space

I’m hopeful that this child of Grace

Will once again deign to return

And from her I shall strive to learn

The lessons only she can teach

Which are not far, they are in reach

Inside of me when full of joy

We play together with our toys

  

Copyright Dawn Van Win

 

 


PETRIFIED

 PETRIFIED

By Peter Woodgate 


“Where on earth has it gone?” Mary fumbled around in her pockets searching for the ticket she had bought just 5 minutes before. A feeling of De Ja Vous overcame her.

    “Can I help you?” a mysterious stranger appeared from nowhere.

“No thank you,” Mary replied abruptly.

“Are you sure, you look so distressed,” the stranger's voice had an air of calmness about it and Mary felt rather embarrassed as she continued to search in the pockets of her overcoat and jacket.

    “Perhaps this is what you are looking for.”

Mary glanced at the outstretched gloved hand, and there it was the admission ticket for Madame Tussauds.

Feeling rather stupid Mary mumbled a “thank you,” adding, “I must have dropped it, how silly of me.”

She found herself gazing into the eyes of the stranger, they were dark, very dark, and the feeling of De Ja Vous crept up on her once again as she studied his clothing.

    He was wearing a top hat, a bow tie with a dress shirt, a dinner jacket with tails and striped trousers. How odd, she thought, as she retrieved the ticket from the gloved hand of the unusual-looking character that stood before her.

Mary thanked him again and was about to enter the exhibition when she felt his hand on her shoulder.   

    She spun around quickly as he spoke.

“Allow me to accompany you, I can be your personal guide, you see I am an expert on everything there is to know about all the exhibits. I am practically part of the furniture.

    Although feeling awkward Mary felt she owed him something for finding her ticket and stammered an “o, ok."

    As they wandered around the stranger, who had now introduced himself as Albert, clearly had a vast knowledge of all the figurines they encountered.

Mary found that before too long they had visited all but the Chamber of Horrors.

She had not intended visiting this part and when she looked at her watch she was aware that the exhibition would be closing fairly soon. Albert, however, insisted they visit this famous old section and she found herself staring through bars at grisly scenes of murder and debauchery. 

    Mary, guessing all the other visitors had left, noticed they were alone in what was now becoming a very spooky place.

“I think we ought to be making our way back,” she spoke nervously, “it will be closing shortly.”

“There is just one more exhibit I need to show you,” Albert ushered Mary along the corridor until they reached the final enclosure.

“But there’s nothing in there,” Mary exclaimed and was about to turn around when she felt herself being pushed through the unlocked enclosure door.

“What the Hell,” Mary had no time to finish her sentence before she felt the knife as it was thrust into her abdomen. The feeling of De Ja Vous hit her once more as she slumped to the floor catching sight of Albert leaning over her before passing out.

    She came to and looked up at the figure still crouched over her, she recognized the clothes as those worn by Albert but she couldn’t see his face. There was a spotlight shining down on her but his face was turned away towards the shadows.

He didn’t move, she tried to, but couldn’t. She screamed but no sound came out of her mouth. She was rigid.

    It was the following day and some early visitors had made their way to the Chamber of Horrors.

“look David,” Helen turned to her boyfriend in excitement, “there’s a new exhibit.”

They looked at the board which showed the details. 

JACK THE RIPPER WITH ONE OF HIS VICTIMS

MARY JANE KELLY 1888

“But you can’t see his face,” Helen remarked disappointedly.

“That’s because they don’t know for sure who he was,” David replied, rather smugly.

“Oh, look at that poor woman’s face,” Helen sighed, “it looks so real, there’s even a tear in her eye.”

Mary’s mute scream echoed throughout the corridors of Hell.

Copyright Peter Woodgate

 

Saturday 5 December 2020

OLD MR JONES

 OLD MR JONES

By Bob French


I smile as my husband, Jim, cradles me from behind as I stare out over the countryside.  It’s three days before Christmas and for the first time in ages, he hasn’t had to go into work.  I feel so happy and content as I stand, feeling him holding me, smelling him, knowing I have him for a whole week.  I hear him chuckle and turn to look up into his hazel coloured eyes.

          “What is it?”

          He nods to the windows and beyond and smiles. “It’s snowing.  We are going to have a white Christmas after all.”

          We stand there in silence just watching the landscape slowly change before our eyes.

          “Who’s that?” and my eyes are drawn to the drive way down our street.  There wrapped in a high-viz jacket is old Mr. Jones.  His face is pinched with the cold and his hair is slowly turning white as the snow starts to lay on his exposed head.“

          “Good heavens, it’s old Mr. Jones. He’s a member of our writing group.”

          Jim quietly says that he’ll catch the death of a cold if he doesn’t wrap up properly.  Without thinking, I ease myself out of Jim’s embrace and move to the cloak-room.

          “What are you doing love?” he calls after me, but all he hears is the click of our front door. Then laughs as he realises that I’m in my soft furry slippers and a cotton skirt and blouse slipping and sliding down the lane towards Old Mr. Jones.

          “Hello Mr. Jones.  What are you doing out in this weather?  You’ll catch a death of a cold if you don’t dress properly.”  I scold him like a young child who has disobeyed me.

          “Hello Frances.”  A smile crept across his ice-cold face.  “I’m doing my community service.  I couldn’t pay my car parking fine so the council took me to court and I was awarded fifteen hours community service.”

          “That’s terrible.  Who were you up in front of?”

          “I’ve no idea.  A woman.  I had forgotten my glasses, so I couldn’t recognize her even if she walked up to me in the street.”  He laughed.

          “Well, here, please put these on,” as I hand him a pair of bright pink gloves and a reindeer bobble hat which brough a smile to his face, then drops his black plastic sack and litter claw and slips on the gloves, then looks at the bobble hat and grins.

          “Thank you so much Frances, that’s very thoughtful of you.” 

          My Christmas spirit kicks in and I invite him in for a hot drink or something, but he declines.

“The quicker this job is done, the quicker I can go home.”

As I stand and admire his dedication and the new look Mr. Jones, the cold air finally reaches my bones and I shiver.  Time to get out of the cold I think.

          “Well take care then.” And I beat a hasty retreat, noting that my foot prints are nearly covered by a new layer of snow.

Jim opens the front door to me as I hurry through it, then collapse onto the hall way carpet shivering. 

“Cold out there then love?”

I take a few deep breaths, sucking in the warmth of the house then look up at him as he gently slips off my wet furry slippers and brushes the snow from my hair and shoulders.  I hold his gaze then he gently lifts me from the floor and holds me.  I melt into his arms as the warmth of my body slowly starts to kick in and he kisses me.

Go into the sitting room and I’ll bring you a drink.”

The heat of the open fire makes me relax as I hear Christmas Carols on the radio and I close my eyes.

“Take this love, mind its hot.”  I slowly open my eyes and grin.  He hands me a hot chocolate in a Santa Mug. Our eyes meet and I thank him with a grin as I notice he’s added marshmallows to the rich, sweet drink.

“Jim Burton, I love you.”

That evening after washing up the dishes, Jim, the number one dryer-upper in Essex asks if the old chap picking up litter in the snow is spending Christmas with his family. 

“Don’t know.  I’m not really sure he has any family to be honest.”

“Then let’s invite him to Christmas lunch.”

I stare at my husband. A man who approaches everything with thoughtful planning and precision, being an engineer. “Are you sure?”

“Yes, why not. I assume you can get his address from the local council.”

The snow has laid and It’s two days before Christmas. I cross my fingers, hoping that the council offices are open. I wait, listening to the ringing tone, then suddenly, there is a voice.  I ask if they could tell me the address of a Mr. Jones who is currently doing community service.  There’s silence as I am put through to another voice.  I explain my request and why I want to contact him, but the woman states in no uncertain terms that it is council policy not to give out addresses.  But just as she was about to put the phone down, she quickly and quietly says that if I wanted to speak to the gentleman, I could try 28 Connaught Road, then the phone went dead.

          Within minutes of the phone call, I am driving my battered old VW through the snow towards a row of old cottages on the edge of town.

          I note as I stop outside number 28; the place is in darkness and I glance at my watch.  It’s ten thirty.  Maybe he’s out shopping, or gone to family for Christmas.

          Suddenly his front door opens and Old Mr. Jones slowly lifts the lid to his black bin and empties his waste paper basket into it. 

Without thinking, I hurry out of my car and stride across the snow-covered path. “Good morning Mr. Jones.”  I see the smile creep across his face and with out thinking, he invites me in.

The cottage is cold and gloomy, as though happiness and life had passed it by.  There were no Christmas Decorations or a Christmas Tree.

“Fancy a cup of tea?” he askes and I shudder at the chill in his kitchen.

“That’s very kind of you, but no.  I can’t stop.” I see the loneliness creep into his eyes as he puts down the tea pot.  “The reason I popped over was to invite you to Christmas dinner?”

I could see the confusion creep across his face.  “Jim and I are inviting to you to come over to our place, say around eleven, and stay for Christmas lunch, then leave after tea time or whenever, if that’s alright?  I’ll pick you up and drop you off if you like.”

I arrive home to find Jim whistling ‘I’m dreaming of a white Christmas’ so I know somethings up.  After quickly looking around and under the tree, I find nothing that looks out of place.

“Alright, what is it?”

He grins. You know my boss Gerald; well he’s taking his family off to Barbados for Christmas and leaving his mother behind.  She doesn’t like flying, so I invited her to Christmas lunch as well.  Thought it might cheer up Mr. Jones.”

I look at Jim thinking how thoughtful he is and I nod my agreement. “What a wonderful idea, bless you darling.”

“I’m picking Mr. Jones up around eleven, so you want me to pick up the mother?”

“No, I’ll take care of that.  She lives the other side of town.”

“Oh, I thought she lived with her son and family.”

“No, I think she doesn’t get on with Gerald’s wife, Lucinda. Or Lucinda doesn’t get on with mother-in-law.  Not sure.”

I slowly open my eyes to the smell of roast turkey wafting from the kitchen and realise it’s Christmas Day.  Jim backs into the bedroom with a tray with breakfast on it.  “Come on lazy bones, turkey’s in the oven and the potatoes have been boiled and flaked.”

 Note to self, add Best darn cook in Essex to the list of things that he excels at.

I’m late back from picking up Mr. Jones and I notice that Jim’s car is already in the drive.  A quick glance through the front windows tells me that the Christmas Tree lights are on.  I turn to Mr. Jones who is now a little apprehensive as we approach the front door.  “It will be alright, I promise.”

Jim opens the door and greets us both with a hearty ‘Merry Christmas,’ and leads us into the sitting room.

Darling, may I introduce Jillian, Gerald’s mother.  Jillian, Frances my wife and Mr. Jones a friend of ours who we’ve invited to join us for Christmas lunch.  As we get to know each other, Jim appears and offers a Bristols cream sherry to everyone.

I leave to deposit my coat in the cloak room followed by Mr. Jones.  When we are out of earshot of Jim and Jillian, I ask Mr. Jones what’s his Christian name.

“Gareth.” He says with a smile, and I take his arm and lead him back into the warm conversation of the sitting room.

I take Jim’s arm and thank Jim with my eyes for a beautifully cooked Christmas dinner as we all retire to the sitting room.  Jillian asks me what occupies my time and I tell her that I’m a writer, though yet to be published.  Smiles and I see a hundred questions coming my way. Jim saves the day and as he fills Gareth’s glass, he asks what he does in retirement besides picking up the litter in a snow storm.

He laughs, I help deliver food to the old people’s homes in the mornings and in the afternoon’s I teach chess to St Johns school.”

“What about family?  Any children?”  We all see his crest fallen face slowly take shape.

“Mildred passed away eight years ago and my two children have grown up and moved away.  We don’t keep in tough I’m afraid.”

I sip my glass then ask Jillian what she does.

“I’m a Justice of the Peace.  It keeps me busy most days of the week I’m afraid. I do miss having friends and socialising.  It seems all work and no play.” I see behind her eyes that she too is lonely.

Jim, who has had a sherry too many, suddenly sits up and I see what is on his mind.

“In your capacity as a JP what do you think of an old man picking up litter in a snow storm because he failed to pay his car parking fine?”  It’s too late. It’s out and there is a stunned silence in the room.

Following the tried and tested formula of ages gone by of awkward situations, I stand.  “Coffee anyone?”  and quietly leave the room, giving one of my deadly stares as I pass Jim.

I can hear the mumble of conversation in the kitchen and think the worst, but to my surprise, when I return, Jillian is sitting next to Gareth all smiles and in deep conversation.  They appear to be getting on like long lost friends.  I glance across at Jim and flash my eyes as though demanding an explanation.

He smiles at me.  “It would appear that Jillian and Gareth went to school together not far from here.  They were good friends until they left school and went their own way.”

I turn around and see that Gareth is gently holding Jillian’s hand.  His face is a picture of happiness and there is a sparkle in his eyes.

The Christmas celebrations continued well into the night with hilarious rounds of charades and festive spirit until it was time to go home.

It was the second week of January and I was on my way to my Zumba Class when who should I see crossing the road, but Garth.

“Happy New Year Gareth.  How have you been.”  Before he answered me, he leant forward and gently kissed me on my cheek.

Frances, I’ve been meaning to give you a call.  Jillian and I have decided to sell out properties and buy a little cottage not far from you.”

I smile and hug him back. “Gareth, that’s wonderful news.  What’s Jillian think of it all.”  This brings a huge smile on his face.

“Well we’re off on a Caribbean cruise at the end of the month.  Be away for a couple of months, but I just wanted thank you for inviting me to Christmas dinner.”

I feel happy for the two lonely people who found a spark of happiness at Christmas.  We hug each other one more time then part.

“You look after yourself and give out love to Jillian please.”  How nice it is to be kind to someone, especially at Christmas. You never know what lies in store when you do.

Copyright Bob French

LOVE IN THE TIME OF COVID

 

LOVE IN THE TIME OF COVID 

By Jane Scoggins 


These last six months have been really manic

And all because of a madness pandemic.

This Covid-19 has gone on and on

My love life is suffering, and it's all so wrong.

I am not an amoeba I can’t do it alone

I am flesh and I'm blood, I’m needing someone.

If I can’t mix or chat, can’t cuddle or mingle

I can see no other option than to stay being single

No smiling or kissing or standing close up

With no opportunity for love, I might just give up

I’m sad and I’m lonely, and so want to be close

To another human being, without a mask on his nose

No choice any more must remember the rules

But I’m sick of restraints and these rules rules rules

Another lonely drink by myself, and then to my room

Will have to settle for chatting via video Zoom.

 

Copyright Jane Scoggins

Friday 4 December 2020

PASSAGE

 PASSAGE 

By Peter Woodgate 


It’s early in the dawn of time

Man’s in his infancy

Much progress in such short a span

Hides blind hypocrisy.

 

Our sciences, in innocence

And with an honest tenet

Look outward to the many stars

Forgotten now our planet.

 

How can we hope in years to come

To find the right solution

When simple comforts we enjoy

Create such vast pollution?

 

Not only in the substances

But in the minds of man

This cannot be the route to take

Have we ignored the plan?

 

We may, one day, amid the stars

Think back, yet not atone,

It’s then assuredly we’ll find

We are, indeed, alone.

 

 

 Copyright Peter Woodgate   (First published 1984)

AN UNEXPECTED MEETING

AN UNEXPECTED MEETING

by Richard Banks


When you go to a provincial gallery you do so more in hope than expectation. If the curator is a person of discernment the procurement of art from living artists will have been astute and well presented, the beginning of a collection that may, in time, acquire a national reputation. If not, you are largely left with the daubings of pre-war and Victorian artists who, the accompanying texts assure us, were well known, if not renown, within their locality.

         For those, like me, who yearn to connect with something more inspired there is little to delay our departure through the gift shop and into the cafe beyond. Indeed on a rain-swept morning the cafe at the Holksmere Town Arts Centre was probably the best place to be. It did, I was told, an excellent pot roast and with that in mind I made my way to the gallery at half eleven intending to while away an hour at most before sampling the culinary arts of a Chef who was about to move on to more remunerative employment in a High Street restaurant.

         The collection proved to be as depressing as the weather and I was soon through to the Victorians when I paused before a painting that seemed to have a little more merit than the rest. Evidently, the gallery thought so too for it had recently been revarnished returning its colours to something like their original hues. The scene it depicted also had topographical interest, showing the west front of the parish church before its restoration in the 1890s. Outside, in the churchyard, is gathered a wedding party of some forty well-heeled members of the local gentry, along with a few others of more splendid appearance. It’s a summer’s day, bright sunshine, short black shadows indicating that it’s only an hour or two into the afternoon. Behind the guests, between them and the church, a horse-drawn carriage waits to take the bride and groom to the reception that has, no doubt, been organised and paid for by the bride’s parents.

         “Good grief, what a performance that was!”

         The voice came from behind me. Without my knowing, someone had entered the room and was only a yard behind me. There was a chill in the air that was almost a mist. I half turned and he came up level with me, a strange little man in a paint bespattered smock that came down to his knees.

         “Thank goodness for photography. Never thought I would say that, but on that day how else would I have coped. An oil painting of themselves and all their guests was what they wanted, accurate in every detail, everyone to be just as they were, standing exactly where they had put themselves. How was I to manage that when they were come and gone in fifteen minutes?”

         The question was apparently rhetorical for the man continued swiftly on.

         “I had no choice but to make a deal with the devil, well, as good as. Paid Timpson, the photographer, to take four plates and work as slowly as he could, while I busied myself sketching everything that caught my eye. Never worked so quickly in my life. In the three weeks that followed I returned to the churchyard on no less than seven occasions to make sure I had the colours and background detail exactly as they were. It was a labour of love, I can tell you. Mark, you there was more than love involved. Had the painting not been to Browning’s liking he would probably have refused to pay me.

         See that man there, the one with the medals, that’s the Earl of Dramgordon. He wasn’t even there, taken ill the day before, but Browning insisted that because he had been invited he must therefore be included. It would, he said, be a breach of etiquette to leave him out. Nonsense! Browning was a social climber who wanted the painting so he could show it off in his dining room.  Leave out the Earl, his guest of honour, no way was he going to do that. Mind you he needn’t have worried, several of his younger guests also distinguished themselves in the years to come. Charley Wainwright won the VC at Mafeking and later became a Government Minister, while the Jones boy became a West End playwright. Then there was Millie Bracknell, who shall we say, achieved a certain popularity in Princely circles. Browning would not have been slow in pointing them out to his dinner guests. He paid me thirty guineas for the picture and got the bargain of his life. Think about it, he had that picture for twenty-five years, twenty-five years of using it so he could brag and show-off. How can you put a price on that? Well, if you could it would be a darn sight more than thirty guineas. However, I shouldn’t complain, the picture was good publicity for me and I received some useful commissions as a consequence of his dinner parties.”

         “And now it’s here,” I said. The words passed slowly from my lips and seemed to struggle through the air.

         “Yes,” he said, “although more by good fortune than design. When Browning died, predeceased by his wife, all his property passed to his only child, the bride in my picture. But what was she to do with my picture? Her husband had left her for an American heiress and applied for a Decree Absolute. The last thing she wanted on her walls was a picture of them both on their wedding day. So she gave it to the daughter of the aforementioned Jones who lived in Scotland, a country Browning’s daughter had never visited and had no thought of doing so. Out of sight and out of mind she reasoned, and so it proved, the picture taking pride of place in another far off dining room. Thirty years on its spinster owner passed away and her house and furnishings were sold at auction. I’m ashamed to say that the reverend gentleman who purchased my picture paid only £3. And why did he buy it? Because he liked the look of the church in the background! Ten years later he was host to an English clergyman who recognised the church and told him where it could be found.

         Although the picture was undisputedly the property of the Scottish Minister the thought that it properly belonged to the parish church rather than himself began to trouble him rather more than his conscience should have allowed. The following year, while availing himself of the reciprocal hospitality of his English counterpart, he visited the church and soon after bestowed the picture upon its board of trustees. It was that body who in 1981 gifted it to the Gallery on condition that the local council undertake certain necessary repairs that the church was unable or possibly unwilling to finance. Its formal unveiling was marked by a gathering of local dignitaries to which I was not invited. Well, of course, I was long gone, dead and buried in the graveyard of the church I once painted. But at least I was not forgotten. Even now there are still a few people who know my name. I wager you won’t be forgetting me in a hurry.”

         I tried to answer but this time the words refused to come. Another voice boomed out from behind me causing me to spin round in alarm. A large, middle-aged man had entered the room in the company of one somewhat younger and of more modest proportions. Our eyes met and he stopped in mid-sentence. Disconcerted and lost for something to say I turned back towards the artist but he was no more to be seen.

         The spell broken and myself in need of a chair to sit upon I hastily made my way to the cafe where I held tightly to the self-service bar until I managed to order and pay for the pot roast. The lady at the till asked if I was alright and when I said I was she bid me take a seat; my meal, when ready, would be brought over to me. I needed no second bidding and sat down at the nearest table. It was my first meeting with a ghost and although he had obviously meant me no harm the encounter left me both bewildered and shaken.

         The lady on the till briefly abandoned her post to bring me my lunch. “Are you sure you’re alright?”

         My querulous expression was changing for the worse. The ghostly encounter was not yet done. The faint but unmistakable sound of his voice was growing louder, drawing ever closer, a  goodbye said, then silence as the artist entered the cafe. The till lady acknowledged his presence with a wave of her hand.

         “Can you see him too?” I spluttered.

         “What, Mr Pettegrew?” she asked, looking at me with renewed concern. “Yes, he’s an actor pretending to be one of the artists in the exhibition. Surprised you didn’t meet him on your way through. He’s proving quite an attraction, especially with the kiddies. At least, that’s what most people think. Now, if you’re sure you’re OK I better get back to the till. The sticky pudding’s very tasty if you fancy a dessert.”

         I did not have dessert. Having by now attracted the unwanted attention of the cafe’s patrons I was only too ready to make my escape. Needless to say, I departed the gallery in a very different mood to the one in which I arrived. How I was taken in by a theatrical performance when no one else had been, I am at a loss to explain. On reflection, the embarrassment I felt was no more than I deserved. No critic is more worthy than the poor artist he despises. I have since done my penance, making a thorough study of the county’s lesser-known talents. They are an interesting bunch, much deserving of the book I am planning to write. If any have become ghosts I look forward to meeting them.                 

 

Copyright Richard Banks